Chapter Thirteen [Jasper Extra #2]

Jasper's POV

With a final kiss to her forehead I whispered, “Please forgive me in the morning.”

I was already tearing up as I waked down the second story stairs and into the guest room that Heidi and Demetri were using. I was thankful that when I knocked, only Demetri was in there. Ushering me into the room once he saw the look on my face, I waited until the door was closed before I let the tears fall and wheeled around toward him.

“You have to change me,” I demanded.

A pained expression crossed his face before he shook his head. “I cannot. Your punishment was to stay human, Aro himself gave that to you and I cannot go against him.”

“Please,” I begged. “You must. Right now I am nothing but this weak human that cant even defend the woman I love. I have the training from both my human days and the southern wars. I have the ability to take out both of those crazy fuckers without having to put anyone else in danger. Besides, if it really is Maria that is helping them I know for certain that she will have backup and I'm talking newborn backup.”

Demetri pinched the bridge of his nose and scrunched his eyes shut. “Jasper, you have to understand that if I change you, you will lose all of your memories again. You will be a blood thirsty newborn that would love nothing more than to drain every human in a ten mile radius. It wouldn't help us being stuck training a newborn with the threats of Edward and Alice alone with this other women.”

“I wont lose my memories!” I shouted.

“Everyone does,” he said softly. “I wish it weren't so but it is.”

“No. I wont. I know I wont.”

“And how do you know this?” he asked.

Exhaling loudly, I rubbed a hand over my face. “When Aro changed me back, I heard my brother's voice.” Demetri raised one of his perfect eyebrows at me as if I were crazy but I waved him off. “I'm serious. He told me things. Peter had this power as a vampire, well it wasn't really a power more just like, he just knew shit. Hell, he still does. But he told me that I would need to bare the three days of fire again for the woman that I love one day. That no matter what I did during the burning, I would awake confused but I would know who I am and everything else from the first time I walked as a toddler and my first word to my mother til the time I look into my baby's eyes.”

“How do I know that this isn't just you trying to pull one over to get me to change you?”

I was actually hurt by that comment. “When have I ever been unfaithful to anyone? When have I ever lied to you?”

“Well, never that I know of.” he whispered, ashamed.

“Because you know I never have and never would lie to you. You are one of my closest friends, a brother to me. You helped me out after I was changed back, you were the only friend I had in the time that I was so depressed about my ex-wife and ex-brother betraying me.” I spoke the honest to god truth. Sure I had Emmett and Rose and Esme and Carlisle as friends, but they were my family. To have someone outside of my family to actually care enough to take time out of their day, every day to check on me and to just be there when I needed to vent. It really meant a lot to me.

I clenched my eyes shut as I felt the tears well up again. My legs gave out on me and I sat there, on my knees, begging Demetri to do this one thing for me. “Please Deme. All I ask is for you to let me be changed so I can protect the woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with. If I have to I can call Aro myself to tell him that I want to fight and I am sure he wouldn't have a problem with me changing back.” I paused a moment to shallow the lump in my throat. “And before you say anything about the pain I want you to know that I would burn for a week, even weeks or months if it meant that I could protect her.”

“Jasper...”

“You would be doing the same thing if it were you and Heidi in my shoes. You would want to protect her same as I want to for my Bella. Please, Demetri, I'm begging you.”

Still on my knees, I looked up at Demetri as the tears streamed down my face. I knew Bella was probably going to try and kick my ass after this but I had to do it. I had to protect her and I just prayed to whatever god that there is that has somehow kept me around long enough to have her as mine, that she will still love me after this.

Demetri sighed heavily. “Fine.”

“What?” my head shot up to look at him.

“You're right about if I were in your shoes. I would be begging as well.” Brushing a hand through his hair, he gave me a small smile. “I'll do it but only because I trust you with what you're doing. Oh and if Bella asks me to change her to just so she can kick your ass, I'll gladly do so.”

I gave a broken chuckle. “I wouldn't want it any other way.”

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The pain was everywhere. My body was on fire, it was like lava in my bones and racing through my veins. The one thing that kept me from screaming was thoughts of my Bella. What was weird though was that every once in awhile it felt as if the pain was being washed away from my entire body. I could feel caresses on my arms and face. The touches were hot but they were comforting and peaceful.

It was like feeling heaven in the middle of hell.

I didn't know days from night or the time of day. I was becoming familiar with sounds around me in the room. The voices kept my mind were they needed to be. I knew the voices. One was my father that only visited a few times but I knew it was Carlisle by his peppermint and leather scent, like old books and candy a father always hide in pockets for his children. The spicy smell of cinnamon and lilac let me know that Heidi and Demetri were also around. The scent I forced on the most was the one of a spring garden. My Bella.

When the burning started to completely fade I knew that it wouldn't be much longer. Unlike the first time I experienced the change of becoming a vampire, I knew what was going on and I knew what I was going to be when I woke up. I could still smell that Bella was in the room even with my shallow gasps for unnecessary air. That worried me because I could taste the delicious scent in my throat and it was making what was a slight burn flame to life.

My heart sped up and I could feel myself raising off of the sofa before falling back onto it.

Then everything stopped.

My breathing. My heart.

There was no movement in the room or the house that I could hear.

Then I felt touches on my body. The heartbeat in the room was too close for comfort because I knew who it belonged to and I needed her to leave until I could hunt. When Bella gasped beside me, I felt the sofa raise back into place from her body being removed and her foot steps echoed through my head. I turned toward the steps and finally opened my eyes only to see Bella staring back at me. I made the mistake of taking a breath and was hit with her scent that if I hadn't known her or who I was and my reasons for me being this way, I wouldn't have thought twice about draining her. That thought made my eyes widen. You're a bastard Whitlock, never talk that way about your mate. I screamed at myself.

Gulping down the venom, that had began to pool in my mouth, several times. I was finally able to speak.

"Go." I whispered to her. It caused me pain to even speak because the burn was so bad but I held myself. I would never hurt Bella.

She took my single word seriously before bolting from the room and soon after Demetri and Heidi ran into the room. Heidi instantly went for the window and leaped out only to come back with an extremely pissed off mountain lion. She dropped her hold on its neck and it turn at the sound of my growl. It snarled loudly as I stalked toward it, swiping its claws at me but doing no damage to my stone body. With one last vicious snarl from the large cat, I let the animal in me take over and I pounded my prey.